Name
You love your name. You always have. You remember being in elementary school and hearing other kids complain about their names, expressing their desire to have a different name.
Kelly, Jennifer, Emily, Ashley.
Those were the names the kids in your class liked.
You were not like them, and couldn’t imagine your name any different than what it is. Juliann.
You have been told often, people love your name. In school, when your teacher calls roll on the first day, she comes to your name and says “what a pretty name that is”.
You smile.
You appreciate the appreciation from others of your name.
Your name isn’t common, so you find yourself haivnt to spell t often; even pronouncing it for those that say Julian rather than JuliANN.
Sometimes you wish your parents had spelled your name with an “e” on the end, Julianne, so there would not be confusion. The confusion embarrasses you, and you wish they would all just know.
People often ask if you go by the name Julie. You quickly and definitively answer no. Julie is not your name.
It is not you. You are not a Julie.
It is assumed that your name is two words, with Ann being your middle name. It isn’t.
You’ve always wanted a middle name, though. All your sisters have a middle name but you, all four of them.
You have always loved names.
You have decided to give yourself a middle name, legally. You’ve been thinking about it for a long time; years, really. But, isn’t it such a hassle and also expensive? Yes. You know this, but you don’t mind. It is important to you and therefore you will make it happen. Because that is what you do.
You have chosen the name. It was easy because it just came to you one day.
Maria.
That is it – your new middle name. It feels right. It sounds right. It is right.
You talk to your mother about it. Why? Because she named you in the first place. You want to make sure she doesn’t feel bad. She shouldn’t; Juliann is the most beautiful name to you, and it makes you, you. You want her to know you aren’t disappointed with her. No, no! She expresses her feelings, and she is a little unsure but still supportive. She loves you. She named you your name for a reason, but she is supportive of you adding to it. She wants you to be happy. She always has.
So then, you begin the process. They are right, it is somewhat of a hassle, but it’s okay, for you are anxiously anticipating the day when you will be Juliann Maria. It is beautiful. You love how it sounds and how it looks.
It will be soon your legal name.
And you will love it.
3 comments:
It IS a beautiful name :) Love Maria too... it was on my list. It's so common south of the border, but not here, so it's OK :) Goes great with Juliann. I like it without the "e" too!
Juliann, I love how this is written! I think it's neat that you want to give yourself a middle name. At some point, Robert has talked about adding Brinkman to his name so we both had each other's last names. Interestingly, I have never really felt like the name "Sandra" fit me, although I respect the fact that my parents gave it to me.
Wow second person is so messed up! I don't know if I have ever read or even heard of second person before. It's like a person who is not you but that has seized your ability to think and is talking and telling you what you should think. What you like and should do. Kind of like the evil side of Gnoloum from the lord of the rings telling the good side of himself, "You don't trust them, you never trust them, you should kill the fat stinky hobbits and get the precious". Did that totally twist your brain writing that assignment? Your writing class sounds fun, I'd like to go back to school.
Maria is pretty, does it have a particular significance or did you just like it?
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